Monday, February 6, 2012
I discovered something the other day.
I could be perfectly happy being single for the rest of my life.
In recent years I've always talked about never getting married. To me this was a lifestyle choice that could be just as fulfilling as having a spouse, but everybody always told me I was being ridiculous. They would tell me that I was being silly and in a little while I'd be eating my words. Some would even talk to me as if my decision conflicted with me being a Christian. Gradually I began to second guess myself. What if I was being a little outrageous? What if in order to be a good Christian and have a contented life I actually had to get married?
Coming to Walla Walla only made things worse...I mean come on...Western Wedding University? It's almost expected that once you're here you must begin the search for a 'special friend'. I actually began to feel a little depressed as I watched all the lovey couples flocking across campus (you may think 'flocking' is an exaggeration but it's not, I assure you). My life wasn't complete because I didn't have a boyfriend. I had let social pressure begin to mold my outlook on relationships.
Enough is enough.
I will not let societies beliefs about relationships ruin my time in college. Being single isn't a bad thing. I can be successful and satisfied with life without being in a relationship. I can live my life the way I want to without having to deal with the drama of a guy. I can do what I want and be independent.
I'm sorry if that sounds feminist but it's how I feel. Don't get me wrong, I'm not against marriage. In fact if it's God's will for my life for me to find a man then so be it. However, I will not force the issues because I do not need a man.
I need to be happy with me.
I need to be happy with who I am - with or without a guy.
Nothing more, nothing less.